poetic pondering

When I was at the most recent Boiler House reunion residency, I wrote a poem that had been percolating in my head for a while and workshopped it with the group. Unlike most of my poems, this one was more than a page long – two and a half pages – and I was very grateful for the input of the Boiler House Poets which helped me to re-craft it to a more manageable page and a half.

Earlier this month, I brought the edited version to workshop with Grapevine Group, my stalwart local group from whom I have learned so much. As it happened, that session marked the return of the elder-statesman poet of the group, who had been unable to be with us for many, many months due to health issues. I will refer to him here as M. I had been in workshop with M only a few times when I first joined the group and have always been awed by him. He is the one among us who has been published most frequently by the big name journals and who tends to ask if we are all submitting our work, a question which always stings a bit because that is the part of the process that I most often neglect.

So, along with being nervous about presenting this poem to Grapevine because it is particularly close to my heart, I was nervous because this accomplished poet who is a founder of our group was there.

…And everyone liked the poem. I was relieved and grateful – and happy to accept comments that give me a few more things to think about for the next round of edits.

I was especially humbled because M was very complimentary to my poem, saying that he could not have written it. Which, I and the other poets in the group know is true only in the context of M could not have written it as it was my personal experience, as he has certainly written poems that were more finely wrought and effective. Still, I was deeply touched by M’s compliment and specific comments on lines and techniques that he liked. Of course, it helped that I used repetition as a poetic technique in the poem, as that is one of his favorite devices. M asked if he could keep a copy of the poem and I was happy to comply.

We met again last night and I was surprised that M brought up my poem from last time. It’s very flattering – and enough to give me butterflies for fear of being disappointing, although my critique did go well again.

As most of my poet friends – and probably a few of my regular readers here – know, I struggle to have confidence in my poetry. On the one hand, this helps me to accept criticism and make edits that make my work stronger. On the other, it keeps me from putting my work out there as much as I should.

I admit that I will probably always feel that I am behind other poets in my knowledge and experience, given that my academic background is scant and I didn’t being to write seriously until I was in my early fifties. Still, I should more often reflect on how far I have come and how much I have grown and developed as a poet over the last several years, even though, for more prosaic reasons, I have not been doing much submitting/publishing in the last couple of years.

So much of that growth is due to my various poetry circles, so I offer my profound gratitude and love to the Binghamton Poetry Project, Grapevine Group, Sappho’s Circle, and the Boiler House Poets. I literally would not be the poet I am today without you – and perhaps not a poet at all.

Author: Joanne Corey

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9 thoughts on “poetic pondering”

    1. Thank you so much, Bob! It means a lot coming from you. Maybe some year either the chapbook or the collection I am working on will be published and I’ll be able to share more publicly – or maybe I will get my act together and have more journal publications. (Prior to that, if you would like to read and/or critique more of my poems, please message me – and comment on a post here as things tend to get buried in the blog inbox and I will make a point to go find your message. Or you can send a note to my regular email which may still be in your computer system from 30/30.)

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  1. So much wisdom here. The critique “I couldn’t have written that” seems to me a standard we should all use in our writing: are we writing something no one else could write? It would keep us focused on being honest and authentic and newly-creative instead of trying to satisfy reader’s expectations (not that I’m struggling with that right now or anything 🙂 ) I also identify with your balancing of lack of confidence having good effects (better able to respond to suggestions) and bad effects (not getting your work out there.) I wonder if both of these traits in me are impeding my writing? Thank you for the musings that you generated by this post.

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    1. Thanks for visiting and commenting, Ellen. I’m glad this post stirred your own reflections. I have been surprised by writers who are much more accomplished and published than I having similar feelings. Perhaps some of it is inherent in writers and not just, as I thought, new writers?

      I have on occasion heard people articulate as a principle that we should write what no one else could. It’s the one thing that gives me courage to attempt a collection of poems about the North Adams area and MASS MoCA – that I have a unique perspective as someone who grew up in the area to address the changes there.

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