The last few weeks have been hectic. My mom, known here as Nana, has been dealing with an increase in fatigue, weakness, and edema as the congestive heart failure progresses. The hospice team continues to be helpful with trying to re-balance some medications but there is always some amount of compromise among symptoms with relieving all of them an impossibility. A couple of months ago, we had to expand private aide coverage from overnight to daytime as well. There have been a number of issues with scheduling, though, plus a few unexpected events that have kept me in a bit of a whirlwind, not being able to tell how any day may develop.
This unsettled feeling is exacerbated by the constant maelstrom of the news. I have been very concerned about Russian interference in the United States and other nations, something that I posted about during the 2016 campaign and have followed since. The indictments that have been handed down so far as a result of the Mueller investigation are disturbing and more may be coming soon. It appears that the obstruction of justice report may be finished in the coming weeks. Having been brought up during the Watergate hearings, just hearing about the possibility of another president under suspicion of obstruction is chilling.
Then, there is Syria. And the rest of the Middle East. And North Korea. And a trade war with China.
Immigration issues. A Congress that is dysfunctional. Gun violence. Racism. Sex/gender discrimination, harassment, and abuse. Bullying and incivility.
I could go on…
And on….
Everything feels impossibly complicated and tenuous and unbalanced. I don’t know if things were more stable in the broader world if I would feel a bit better equipped to cope with personal family issues, but I do know that it isn’t helping my mindset in the least.
Overwhelming to say the least. Almost too much to take in and then adding personal issues to the mix. I can’t even imagine. Sending positive vibes your way.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Thank you so much. We can use all positive vibes sent our way.
LikeLiked by 1 person
It’s a very difficult time for you personally which can make everything seem rather overwhelming. Hang in there and look after yourself too.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Thank you, Tric. I’m trying to look after myself, too, but there are so many other people who need me, I admit I am putting some of my own self-maintenance on hold.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Your steadfast support of your remarkable family is a beautiful thing, and you are a wonder in the faithful way you soldier through it. Holding you in prayer and sending love.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Thank you so much for your love and prayers, Cindy. We need as much of them as possible. I hope that you are managing okay in this wild spring.
LikeLike
I admire your willingness to stay up with the news, but you’ve gotta take care of yourself. When I’m overwhelmed with family or emotional stuff, I get real selective about my news watching/reading and go hunting for good news. It’s out there! We need balance. https://www.facebook.com/groups/goodgoodgoodco/ and Good News Network are a couple places I look.
LikeLike
Thanks for your concern and resources, JoAnna. I admit that I have really hit a wall personally lately. I am marshaling every personal resource I have to help me get back some sort of equilibrium, but I admit that I am not there yet.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Take time for you. Get a massage. Do what feels good to you. Take a mini vacation where you really relax. A day, an afternoon, whatever you can. You’re worth it.
LikeLike
I have a list for when things settle a bit…
LikeLiked by 1 person